Out of everything I want to do, I have chosen to do but a few. The final list:

Debating. Asia committee meetings. Asia dance rehearsals. Mooting. Macro exam. MA exam. Law assignment. Work. UWA symphony orchestra - rehearsal all day every day till production. Production on thursday. St Hilda's concerto concert rehearsals. Organise politics forum. Write politics paper. Apply for chartered accountant. RBA competition. Father's day. Karate.

All within the next 8 days.

Breathe.

So sure I could do it.

So sure that I can.

In dire need of prioritisation - but I'll make it. :).

Have you ever watched kids
On a merry-go-round?
Or listened to the rain
Slapping on the ground?
Ever followed a butterfly's erratic flight?
Or gazed at the sun into the fading night?

You better slow down.
Don't dance so fast.
Time is short.
The music won't last.

Do you run through each day
On the fly?
When you ask How are you?
Do you hear the reply?
When the day is done
Do you lie in your bed
With the next hundred chores
Running through your head?

You'd better slow down
Don't dance so fast.
Time is short.
The music won't last.

Ever told your child,
We'll do it tomorrow?
And in your haste,
Not see his sorrow?
Ever lost touch,
Let a good friendship die
Cause you never had time
To call and say,"Hi"

You'd better slow down.
Don't dance so fast.
Time is short.
The music won't last.

When you run so fast to get somewhere
You miss half the fun of getting there.
When you worry and hurry through your day,
It is like an unopened gift....
Thrown away.

Life is not a race.
Do take it slower
Hear the music
Before the song is over

Today is my 1000th day on xanga!!!!!!!!!!

wo00Oo0oOO0o0oOoot~~

To quote from a previous entry tittled 'Blogging':

"Blogging for me is a type of respite from the world. It's about delving deep into the recesses your soul and turning the intangible into neat lines of size 1, comic sans font.

Sometimes.

Other times it's more of a major ranting session or where I inform the apathetic world of my victories and failures."

This process of taking time to analyse the events which have occurred has been the catalyst to my growing up.The comparison of past entries and more recent posts reveals a growing level of maturity and understanding of the world around me and how I fit in. 

It is through blogging  I came to better understand the method of formulating my thoughts into coherent ideas and then into paragraphs, sentences and words. Not only has this improved my essay writing skills dramatically, but it has also improved my ability to express myself and to therefore interact with the outside world.

In short, blogging has positively influenced the person I am today.

So I just wanted to say thank you to all my readers whose witticisms and ideas and own blogs have inspired me and encouraged me to keep writing to the best of my ability.

Love Lots
Arnina
xoxoxo

1. if you have nothing good to say, don't say anything at all

2. strictly single or in a serious relationship.

strictly single means no .. nothing. including .. dancing in a provocative manner. ^_^

i can do it. >.>

somewhat confused about melbourne and what a "guaranteed place" means. right now i don't think i will mind all that much if i have to stay in perth another year.. but i'm sure i will still go to melbourne given the opportunity.

I met another lawyer last night. husband of mothers friend. he acknowledged the sexism of the system - one of the few people to do so so far - and also warned me about the corruptness that i was about encounter. it's slightly off putting. but it was also very worthwhile as he has told me to call him if i was going to stay in perth and was doing law because he has a job in mind for me at a law firm. ^^ yay.

a few friends of mine bought me a surprise cake for my birthday since they couldn't make it to my bday party. very sweet ^^

unfortunately i only remembered to take a photo AFTER we ate half of it. strange thing is - i couldn't think of anything to wish for. which means my life must be pretty fulfilling right? =)

i heart my friends. =)

wrote an entry which didn't show up... so writing condensed version

tee: disappointed but not devastated. music scaled down to b. english was really good for me and really really gd considering i went into the exam only skimming through my notes on 2 txts. you reap what you sow - i deserved my mark so not complaining. but it also means i'm going to be staying in perth for another year at least.

bday: got a book called "feminism: issues and arguments". in love with it. one of my coolest presents ever! almost makes up for not doing lit. =) had a fun day overall. my friends are awesome =) also ran into some people whom i haven't seen since the beginning of the year:

me: heyy _____
him: >.>
me: oh u don rmb me do u..that's alright.. probably coz u were pretty drunk when the time we met
him: ohhh.. ARNINA!!!
me: -.- wth

EDIT:// also got this awesome shirt from lisa which said, "i'm right. you're wrong. any questions?" apparently she thought of me as soon as she saw it. ^^ and yes - i am proud. \\: END EDIT

uni: planning to do law and commerce. then mba. then in spare time do arts degree n do chinese, music, philosophy and psychology. perhaps. lol

that's about it i think. oh and probably an apology for being absent.

luv ya
arnina

bond uni sent me a stress kit:

"dear arnina _____,

.... this is a small care package to help you get through the final yr 12 stretch. inside you will find peppermint tea to calm your nerves, a box of smarties - because you are what you eat, a pen to write down you ambitions, a massager to ease exam tension, sunflower seeds to encourage you to get outside for some fresh air, and a party blower - you'll know when it's time to use this.

... whether you see yourself as an international diplomat, self-made entrepreneur, or defending the rights of others, every individual has the potential to achieve something extraordinary.

I'm here if you have any questions about your future career.

Best of luck,

... "

so sweet. lol they also gave me a bond bag..

kinda tempted to accept that scholarship now.. they actually CARE! *gasp!* lol. i mean they tailored the "whether you see yourself as.." to suit me.. from the course i applied for! law/international relations (commerce)

i wanna be an international diplomat!!! lol

in other news i may be going to melbourne for more than just a few days in december.. coz mum wants to take me property shopping =) sounds like fun... but i'm gonna be staying at this girl's house who i met a few weeks ago.. she's awesome n she's gonna take me clubbing. heh heh heh ^_^ woot.

ooo and i applied for work experience at this law firm (not the one i asked the random guy on the train abt) advertised at school and i cant WAITTT. ^.^

AWESOME XD

love heaps
arnina

Rape

There is a cop who is both prowler and father
he comes from your block, grew up with your brothers,
had certain ideals.
You hardly know him in his boots and silver badge,
on horseback, one hand touching his gun.

You hardly know him but you have to get to know him:
he has access to machinery that could kill you.
He and his stallion clop like warlords among the trash,
his ideals stand in the air, a frozen cloud
from between his unsmiling lips.

And so, when the time comes, you have to turn to him,
the maniac's sperm still greasing your thighs,
your mind whirling like crazy. You have to confess
to him, you are guilty of the crime
of having been forced.

And you see his blue eyes, the blue eyes of all the family
whom you used to know, grow narrow and glisten,
his hand types out the details
and he wants them all
but the hysteria in your voice pleases him best.

You hardly know him but now he thinks he knows you:
he has taken down your worst moment
on a machine and filed it a file.
He knows, or thinks he knows, how much you imagined;
He knows, or thinks he knows, what you secretly wanted.

He has access to machinery that could get you put away;
And if, in the sickening light of the precinct,
And if, in the sickening light of the precinct,
Your details sound like a portrait of your confessor,
Will you swallow, will you deny them, will you lie your way home?

Adrienne Rich

I love this poem. It epitomizes the plight of the female in our patriarchal society. All men are potential rapists. Or to borrow from wikipedea:

"Rape is a poem by Adrienne Rich. Rape describes the plight of a woman who has been raped forced to seek justice from a callous and patronizing male-dominated world. As in many of Rich's poems, Rape highlights the struggle of women against sexism and its sometimes cruel consequences, and can be seen as an effort to call women to action."

I liked it because I connected with it and because I understood the message it was trying to convey straight away.

Because I agree and think that not much has changed since the 70's and that we have to make a stand for what is right.

And I know this because some of my friends don't believe rape exists in marriage. They think it's perfectly fine. They agree that marriage is essentially the legalisation of rape. In our society today - we claim to be civilised. We claim to have equal rights. We claim to respect the rights of other human beings. In this society in which we live - how can such an act be condoned?

And don't even get me started about marriage in general and how it's a patriarchal, social construct designed to legitimize male ownership. (right bec? ^_^)

appologies for the lack of blogging..

my net broke.

actually hotmail and xanga and msn broke.

 but not multiply..

i dont think

but i never checked.. my bad

i like xanga more. i think i'm going to stop using mutiply.. when i cbb.. the main reason for using multiply in the first place was so that non members could comment. but they cant. so there goes the main reason..

TEE.

stress?...

only since today. and i've already done 3/7 exams..

it's sinking in.. 50% .. more actually coz of the scaling process.. that used to COMFORT me.. coz i thought that no matter how badly i did.. i still had the TEE.

now i'm thinking.. oh.. SHIT

and i've been swearing a lot more recently.

and i swear i'm becoming anti-social

yes me.. anti-social.

well.. not 'anti-social' as such (i seem to be making friends at a greater rate than ever) but more like i'm less inclined to behave on others expectations of me.

jane told me that i acted "bimbo" (blonde) because it was expected of me.

well i guess that's just the result of being the sex bomb that i am. XD

i kid i kid.

i never actually GOT the saying 'sex bomb'.. but whatever.

so yesh.. TEE huh. surreal experience. maybe i'm in shock?

or maybe i'm just plain apathetic.

it hasn't occured to me that i'm going to get a bad grade.

that's never happened to me before..

always land on my feet i do..

i seem to he having a lot of paragraphs.. or maybe i just like the enter key. =)

oh btw.. i got straight A's.

for the first time in my life.

i went from a C to an A in english XD first A in english.. EVAHHH..

yes i am proud.

so i've got 11A's and 1 C.. wooooottt.. excellence certificate here i come. XD ^___^ wooot. =) =3

and that's basically all i care about.

but i guess the scholarship to Bond uni kinda stops me worrying about my TEE.. coz snot like i'm not gonna get into uni. =)

english tomorrow. i'm kinda unprepared.. but all i've really got to do is pass. i think i can manage that. =)

i'm worried about calculus actually. the fact that i forgot how i did the quesions when i got my mocks back only a week after the actual exam was a bit disconcerning.

screweeeeeeddddd

oh well.. only 2 wks left. WOOOOTTT

i seem to be going out more these past few weeks than the whole year combined..

i think there's something wrong with me..

blehh~

luv ya
arnina

wow. i'm old.

it was HELL fun!! =)

ran around all day getting ppl to sign my shirt. it is CRAMMED. someone wrote "heard about ur kinky bed breaking stories". -.-;;; i can't figure out who. how did she hear about that? -__-;; and don't worry - it wasn't in anyway sexual. it was just a bunch of us bouncing on the bed. wait.. that didn't come out right. well there were 3 girls and a guy. wait.. i'll just shut up now.

but who wrote it?? O.o;;

anyway after that we had a yr 12 music photo which charlee set up just so she could pour water on mr. chapman's head. and guess who was standing next to mr. chapman?? yes. i am an idiot. i forgot about it.. -__-;;;

then we went to the beach and i met some rossmoyne friends of mine whom i intro'd to my sthildas friends and met some HAWT rossmoyne boys. alright.. i met A hot rossmoyne boy. i think everyone loves him. lol

going to the beach is great

then band practice. with the cello which sits between my legs (as sarah pointed out to jonno.. tnx sarah =P)

and then home sweet home.

i cant wait until i get my license XD

love heaps
arnina =)

firstly i'd like to appologise to all the people i annoy by sending them emails remind them that i have posted.. i forget to uncheck the 'e-mail to:' sometimes.

oh and appologies also to the people of my network which my newly-invited friends spam with their importing of the entries. heh heh hehh

oh btw.. i dont think i'll be using mutiply anymore (as soon as i can be bothered finding another blogging site) reason being i got multiply in the first place so that ppl without accounts could post comments. that doesn't seem to be working. i'm thinking blogspot or that cool thing scarlet has ^^ not lj =)

so i got my mocks back today.

that sucked.

in other news: we had assembly first today and awards were handed out and westpac maths competition was one of them. only 2 people in our year got high distinction. first was jane - no surprises there. then was ..... me. morium - sitting nxt to me at that time - said, "WHAT THE?!?!?!" and that was basically the general consensus at that time.

heh heh heh.. i got high distiction? O.o O_O 0.0. wow...

kinda proud.

reason i'm talking about it is coz i dont want to think about mocks.

=)

i didn't go to the beach today - i think i'm a really bad organiser.

but i'm really glad.

apparently the weather was reallllly bad and there were rips and the life-guards had to save so many ppl and in the end they had to close the beach.

*gasp*

i think god must love me

^^

being the stupid idiot which i am - i didn't study for physics until the night before. not the afternoon. not the morning. but the NIGHT before. because i was too busy on msn for 2 hrs the afternoon before =3 coz i'm just that stupid. i was up till 3am.. the last time i looked at the clock it said 2:50am. when i looked at it again it said 6:30am. just in time for morning revision. what a great night's sleep.

except my ability to sleep through everything came though (Even though my radio alarm was on the entire time) and next time i looked at the clock it said 8:15am.

my exam was at 8:50. WOOT

but it paid off. seriously. you'd think i'd be tired now. having woken up at 6:30am, sleeping at 2:50am the following day and waking at 6:30am again. and now being 8:35pm. but not really. wow. i wonder when i'll get off this high. (which may or may not be from snorting sugar. sarah really is a bad influence.)

so anyway. i was waiting for mum to pick me up at subiaco train station for my cello lesson and i'm just standing there. all innocent and stuff. and i suddenly turn and see the MAN taking PHOTOS of me.

O_O

with a cool arse camera too. i.e. it was BLACK. and had one of those zooming in LENSES. (you can see how well i know my cameras)

and as soon as he saw me look at him - he jumped and quickly put his camera down (it was still hanging on his neck though) and started walking again.

O_________________________O;;;;;;;

KINDA FREAKED OUT

love me

p.s. THIS WAS THE PHOTO I WAS TALKING ABOUT!!!!! THE ONE WHICH I TRIED TO DESCRIBE IN HOPES OF CONVEYING IT'S FUNNINESS INTO WORDS!! and failed miserably at it too.. ENJOY!! =)

baby, i wish you were x^2 and i was x^3 so that way i'd be the area under YOUR CURVE

dont you wish you were Sin^2x and i was Cos^2x? that way we'll be 1

you know why there are black holes? its when god divided by 0

today, i saw the hottest turning point ever

Huge Mr Derivative storms into the meeting of mathematical symbols, and everyone runs off screaming, except for one. "What the...?" says Mr Derivative, "Aren't you afraid of me? Why arent you?" And the symbol says, "Because I'm e to the x, you cant hurt me!" And Mr Derivative says, I believe you are unfamiliar with my alter ego d/dy!
[i don't get that one.. ]

man, i dont need the sun to get a tan. i have sine and cosine

My love for you is like the slope of a concave up function because it is always increasing.

im not being obtuse, but your acute girl

i'd love to find the area underneath YOUR curves xPPP

do you know i used to have a crush on maths? but then she got all complex and imaginary
i couldn't integrate her expressions.

XD

guess what?

remember that guy who didn't ask for my contacts at the royal show but instead decided to ask my friend AFTER the show if he could have my email?

well... that friend sms'd me the day that i posted 'the world makes sense again' to ask if she could have my email to give to him.

and i still haven't replied.

FOR GOOD REASON too.

like i'm chicken =3

like i have no interest in him what-so-ever and that if i put i off long enough he'd forget about it?

like if i give him my email that will lead to long awkward msn conversations which i could totally do without.

like even if he'll probably make a great friend i'm gonna have to go through the whole 'getting-to-know-you' and 'stop-trying-to-get-inside-my-pants' phase which i can totally do without.

so guess what my cool little friend did when i didn't reply?

SHE GAVE HIM MY MOBILE NUMBER INSTEAD.

oh gee. thanks a lot. thanks a whole bunch.

so he sms'd me 5 minutes ago.. asking me if it was alright if he called me.

WHAT DOES THAT MEAN??

seriously.

is that some kind of hidden secret message in those words which i should know about before responding?

TOO LATE

i replied 'hi ____. sup?'

i am sooooooo cool -.-

p.s. for our music prac mocks - we HAVE to play the piece we haven't played yet as our 'students' choice' according to mr. chapman all the other schools have to too. WELL THAT DOESN'T SEEM TO BE TRUE FOR HALE SINCE ADRIAN HAS PLAYED THE SAME 2 PIECES FOR EVERY SINGLE PRAC. BLOODY unfair. -________-;;; hmppph *sulk*. bleh~

it went much better than I thought it would. especially after my atrocious mark from my last calc test.

^____^

but i feel stupid. i was on the last 2 pages 2:20hrs into the 3hr exam and read "THIS IS THE END OF THE EXAM" at the bottom of the next page and as such was really happy since that meant i was gonna finish! and it also meant that i'd have time to check!

the thing was.. i was too happy. couldn't concentrate (actually i had a problem concentrating throughout the entire exam -.- i kept seeing myself from a birds-eye-view. O.o;;) and i really wanted to pee..

so after reading the 2nd last question over 3 times and then misinterpreting it i finally nearly finished part a. -.- because it was a proof and i couldn't for the life of me figure out how they got from T=100v/64 + 800/v to T=25v/16 + 100/v. i kept thinking that they did some kind of specky square-rooting.

BUT NO.

all they did was factorise by 4. -____-;;;;;

and that took me 3 minutes of checking and rechecking the question as well as and my working to realise it. -.-

oh and the last question.. it was in the 2005 calculus TEE exam. you know.. the IMPOSSIBLE one? yeah.. that one.

i didn't do the exam because i er... misplaced.. my copy of the exam.. so i flicked through jane's copy at lunch yesterday. i saw the question.and i thought.. that looks easy. how wrong i was. thank god jane informed me that it was NOT easy and told of how she rationised it EVERYWHERE before looking at the answers and realising that you hadto rationise it at the beginning. and the actual rationising was really strange too since it was in that weird re^(iθ) form.

so then i had a closer look and though.. sif they'll ask that.

BUT THEY DID.

and i rationised it EVERYWHERE. TWICE. before i got it into my thick, panicking, annoyed-because-i-had-so-little-time-to-check-my-paper-now, mind that this wasn't working. and THEN i had a faint recollection of jane telling me about a question which she had to rationize everywhere too and thought.. maybe it's the same question? *cue that scene from mean girls where lindsey lohan is trying to see the board behind that cute guys hair* (except there was no hair and no board.. there was an ice-cream sundae and sheets of paper though =3)

once i figured out where to rationise it.. i just had to figure out HOW.

i got it in one. except i didn't think i did coz i made a stupid mistake in my working -.- so after two more go's i finally got it. WOOOT

and i was happy. and hyper. and satisfied.

until i realised i only had 15 more minutes to check and there were 2 questions that i was SURE was wrong as well as countless stupid mistakes i didn't pick up. bleh~

and i didn't fix those 2 questions..

but go the follow through marks! lol

so all-in-all, calc was alright.

but that's just coz i'm happy i got the last question.

even though it was worth 6 marks and i spent 20minutes on it. -.-;;

i'm going to have to delete this after i give him my email.. but just for the moment..

i went to the royal show last week. it was fun. i met a guy (when DONT i meet a guy? -.-) he was a friend of a friend's boyfriend - actually i'm sure he as a friend of the friend too.

anyway he accompanied me on all the rides i wanted to go on, paid for a ticket for a ride and gave me a soft toy. and at the end of all that he didn't ask for any contacts.

that puzzled me.

a lot.

since when do guys people guys do things and not expect things in return?

the foundations of my world rocked.. AGAIN (they keep rocking these days! -.-)

anyway after a week a got a txt msg from my friend telling me that he wanted my email.

and now i'm happy coz my expectations of the world are met again =)

Ever wanted to say something outrageous to a stanger just to see their reaction? i never have. but i used to talk to them .. all the time in year 8 on the bus. but that habit has stopped. thank anti-social tools like the i-pod and the portable video game for that.

Sitting on the train on the way home - some what bored because i'm reading over my physics notes and it's going over my head - i see the man sitting next to me looking at some legal notes. (and i know they're legal notes because they are in the same format as the mock trial legal notes =3)

debated with myself on whether to talk to him and ask him about law and such.. but he looked pretty busy highlighting..

then remembered what wilson said the day before - about talking to randoms.. and wondered what i had to lose.. and so i did it.

wow

turns out he went to melbourne for uni (he said it was 'excellent'). ^____^ and he lived with med ppl. and apprently med ppl dont party, do drugs or smoke much.. i THINK coz i couldn't hear him properly.

he gave me his contact info coz i asked him about work experience.

SEEEEEEE.

it all paid off.

i am UBER cool

XD

one thing i notice about lawyers in general is that they all speak and move very slowly. infact - when he was getting some paper out to write his info on i was afraid that he decided to ignore me because he was just so damn slow. gahhhhhh.. i HOPE i dont turn out like that..

ooooOOoO and another incident involving talking to strangers? i tried to tell this man to stop smoking outside gelares in nb.. he ignored me, justifying his smoking with "the guy before was doing it" when i pointed out all the 'no smoking' signs.

RETARD

he was sitting upwind from us so we got all the smoke. woot - i'm going to die from passive smoke inhalation. not to mention it smells terrible. -.-